Chrissy Teigen recently marked the first anniversary of losing her third child, Jack.
And the post was utterly heartbreaking.
Have a look for yourselves...
Now, Chrissy Teigen has been through a lot over the past year.
The former model, who is married to singer John Legend, has had a difficult twelve months.
She and John are the proud parents to their 2 children...
Luna and Miles.
And in the last decade, Chrissy has gained a huge following from fellow parents worldwide...
And she is very much loved for always keeping things real when it comes to raising 2 young kids.
She's clearly such an amazing mom...
Who has a wicked sense of humor!
But last year in September...
Chrissy and John opened up about a tragic loss in their family.
Chrissy took to social media to announce they had lost their third unborn child...
Who they had already decided to name Jack.
In the emotional post that contained photos of the moment they said goodbye to baby Jack, the heartbroken mom apologized to her son...
She then acknowledged the things that she and John are grateful for...
And, just a few weeks after the tragic loss...
Chrissy returned to social media to share an essay she wrote for Medium about her harrowing experience.
In the deeply personal piece simply titled "Hi," the star started off by explaining that she didn't know when she would be ready to address her son's death.
She took some time to thank fans for their support...
Chrissy then moved onto talking about the day she lost Jack.
Chrissy explained that she was admitted to hospital after persistent bleeding and multiple blood transfusions, and diagnosed with partial placenta abruption.
"I could have spent these days at the hospital, but not much of a difference would have been made. I was still seen by doctors at home, silently twisting their negative words into positives, thinking that everything might still turn out okay."
Chrissy then described the heartwrenching moment she was told it was time to say goodbye.
"After a couple nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye.
"I cried a little at first, then went into full-blown convulsions of snot and tears, my breath not able to catch up with my own incredibly deep sadness. Even as I write this now, I can feel the pain all over again. Oxygen was placed over my nose and mouth, and that was the first picture you saw. Utter and complete sadness."
"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience."
via: Getty"I had always laughed about how much I loved epidurals…not so much this one. I laid there for hours, waiting to be told it was time to push. I obviously never had to dilate much, he was still a tiny little guy. "I had been laying on my side, switching sides every hour or so, whenever the nurse told me to. I remember laying on my right side, looking opposite of John, when I was told to make my switch. I opened my legs and started to turn to face John and just like that, he was on his way out. The doctors yelled for a bit and…I don’t know what to say, even now. He was out."
"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn’t feel empty, this space. It feels full."
It's now been a year since the family's tragic loss...
And slowly but surely, they have been learning to live with their grief and build their lives back together.
It's clear to see that Chrissy is starting to get back to her old, bubbly self...
Though she is still incredibly open about her struggles, even a year on.
And her most recent post was dedicated to that dreaded day.
Comments poured in, supporting Chrissy while she was at her most vulnerable.
Posting to her thirty-five million followers, Chrissy opened up about her grief a year on from the tragic day.
"And to the son we almost had. a year ago you gave me the greatest pain I could ever imagine to show me I could survive anything, even if I didn't want to. i didn't get to take care of you but you came and went to get me to love myself and take care of myself because our bodies are precious and life is a miracle. they told me it would get easier but yeah, that hasn't started yet. mom and dad love you forever," she wrote alongside a heartbreaking picture of her and her husband.
Rest in peace, Jack.