After an unbelievably difficult few months, Chrissy Teigen has just revealed to her fans that she's currently 4 weeks sober and there's no denying how happy she's looking!
Now, we all know that Chrissy Teigen and John Legend have had the worst possible few months...Because back in October, the couple took to social media to reveal that they'd lost their third unborn child.
Chrissy and John had already settled on a name for their little boy..."We never decide on our babies’ names until the last possible moment after they’re born, just before we leave the hospital. But we, for some reason, had started to call this little guy in my belly Jack. So he will always be Jack to us. Jack worked so hard to be a part of our little family, and he will be, forever," Chrissy wrote on social media.
In the post, the heartbroken mom apologized to her son..."To our Jack - I’m so sorry that the first few moments of your life were met with so many complications, that we couldn’t give you the home you needed to survive. We will always love you. Thank you to everyone who has been sending us positive energy, thoughts, and prayers. We feel all of your love and truly appreciate you."
She then acknowledged the things that she and John are grateful for...
And, just a few weeks after she shared the heartbreaking photos from her stillbirth...Chrissy returned to social media to share an essay she wrote for Medium about her harrowing experience.
In the deeply personal piece simply titled "Hi," the star started off by explaining that she didn't know when she would be ready to address her son's death."I had no idea when I would be ready to write this. Part of me thought it would be early on, when I was still really feeling the pain of what happened. I thought I would sit in the corner of my bedroom with the lights dimmed, just rolling off my thoughts. I’d have a glass of red wine, cozy up with a blanket, and finally get the chance to address 'what happened'."
"Instead, I’m writing from the downstairs couch, still cozied up in a blanket but buzzing from a morning of friends and fried chicken."
She took some time to thank fans for their support...
Chrissy then moved onto talking about the day she lost Jack.
Chrissy explained that she was admitted to hospital after persistent bleeding and multiple blood transfusions, and diagnosed with partial placenta abruption.
"I could have spent these days at the hospital, but not much of a difference would have been made. I was still seen by doctors at home, silently twisting their negative words into positives, thinking that everything might still turn out okay."
Chrissy then described the heartwrenching moment she was told it was time to say goodbye."After a couple nights at the hospital, my doctor told me exactly what I knew was coming — it was time to say goodbye. "He just wouldn’t survive this, and if it went on any longer, I might not either. We had tried bags and bags of blood transfusions, every single one going right through me like we hadn’t done anything at all."
"Late one night, I was told it would be time to let go in the morning."
"After hours, I was able to relax, and decided I wanted to wait until I really, really knew it was over."
"I’m not sure I’ll ever forget the experience.""I had always laughed about how much I loved epidurals…not so much this one. I laid there for hours, waiting to be told it was time to push. I obviously never had to dilate much, he was still a tiny little guy. "I had been laying on my side, switching sides every hour or so, whenever the nurse told me to. I remember laying on my right side, looking opposite of John, when I was told to make my switch. I opened my legs and started to turn to face John and just like that, he was on his way out. The doctors yelled for a bit and…I don’t know what to say, even now. He was out."
"People say an experience like this creates a hole in your heart. A hole was certainly made, but it was filled with the love of something I loved so much. It doesn’t feel empty, this space. It feels full."
In honor of Jack, Chrissy and her family decided to do some special things for him shortly after losing him.
And of course...
Floods of support came in from fans all around the world for the grieving family.
@chrissyteigen Sending you and your family so much love and peace. Thank you for allowing so many women to feel see… https://t.co/9s2o6yf92p— Marquita Bradshaw (@Marquita Bradshaw)1601576865.0